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Sunday, April 23, 2006 hey people. i just felt that i had to blog today... its been a really long time since i last penned down my thoughts here. im addicted to the click five now. (=
im bored with my life. and im worried for myself. i really am. because there's a parasite stuck in my head right now. it made its way into my brain on wednesday i think. what a horrible time for it to do so! luckily i was done with both my peetees by then. yeah so now the bloody parasite's stuck in my head, sucking up my brain cells. whenever i am having fun or doing work, my immune system is in full gear. all the white cells and dunnowhat cells start attacking the parasite, making it barely noticeable. but sadly, the truth is, it hasnt disappeared. whenever i am idle, the parasite swings into action and drowns my brain in thoughts and memories and questions. lots and lots of questions. most of which will probably never be answered. these questions give rise to sadness and regret. doubt. so much doubt. hurt. pain.
regret. regret for not taking heed. for not believing my own intuition. hurt. for being made use of. for not truly being cared for. pain and anger. unexplainable. the words are strong enough to tell my whole story. the world needs to know. although my heart is drained of emotions now, the pain lingers. it will continue to linger. one solution to my problem is to have fun/do work 24/7. but that won't get rid of the parasite, no. the only solution that will work is, very simply, to kill the parasite.
i need to kill the parasite. it will drain me of everything if i dont act fast.
what if i dont act fast enough.
what if.
if.
a beacon of calm light shines through the darkness and turmoil...
you. thank you. all of you. you are the people i truly loved. anything parasitic is not love. YOU are love. and i love you.
12:07 PM
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im not exactly materialistic D: hahahahahahaha i erased all the cool stuff!
im not exactly materialistic D: hahahahahahaha i erased all the cool stuff!
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